This is where it gets a bit uncomfortable, that being sincere.
Something that makes me feel ‘fake’ and insincere (and a bit
hypocritical, if I'm being honest) is the fact that I have these awesome followers and am on this
journey, but NO ONE that knows me on my personal IG has a clue about it. And that includes most of my friends (although not all) Should
that make me feel fake? It scares me to have people I actually know follow me
on my fitness and health account. Why? I don’t know, being judged? Feeling
silly? Some old 'enemies' that I no longer have the energy for have attempted to follow my fitness account, and my face immediately burned and I quickly blocked them. But that’s fake, isn’t it? I only show them (them being personal friends and mostly acquaintances or coworkers) staged snippets of my life.
Something I only feel is 'artsy' enough. Should I offer them the chance to follow my fitness account? This is something
I will have to think about, and if I do choose to post something to my personal
account, how do I word it, how do I go about it? Lots of questions and not many
answers today. But it weighs on my mind, trying to find authenticity and live a
genuine life, that means all aspects. That means not hiding behind a mask.
SCARY. I will consult you guys for opinions, I know you will have the answer,
even if it won’t be easy. Easy is not the point; easy is not my word for December,
genuine is.
Sincerely,
(see what I did there?)
I know what you mean. I don't advertise my fitness account and I was so nervous in the beginning. A few close friends and my boyfriend follow me but I feel like I still get that side eye sarcastic "really?" look from them when they see my posts. My bf once accidentally tagged my fitness account and I nearly bit his head off I was so mad... and I guess now that you said it... scared. I don't care so much now but I still don't advertise it. I've inspired a few friends to join or try to do more workouts, eat better foods and such so that's been a positive effect. You are crazy inspiring and maybe you're doing your friends a disservice by not sharing this other part of yourself. You're right though, definitely food for thought... @kdfitgirl
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